MONTHS
Yep, it's officially been 6 months since we finished our paperwork and were put on the waiting list in Ethiopia. (We've been in the process just shy of 1 year total.) I remember a few months ago when we were getting new waiting list numbers all the time, I used to get excited to go online and search for pictures of cute numbers to post. Today, I looked for the saddest looking 6 I could find... LOL. This is a depressing looking 6 isn't it?
Which brings me to my next point. Despite statements like the one in the paragraph above, I am fine. I've gotten the impression lately that people think I'm really depressed or something because of this somewhat frustrating wait. This is my fault by making statements on this blog and on Facebook about my frustration. I'm not going to lie, it does suck, and I am a little bitter about the fact that we haven't moved a spot in well over 2 months, but I do know I will be fine in the end. Everyone in the adoption community warned me about this part of the process, so it is not a huge surprise to me to be feeling quite frustrated right now. Where I went wrong was that I, like so many other future adoptive mothers, just thought that for some reason we would be the exception from a long referral wait, and when we moved so quickly on the waiting list at first, I REALLY thought we would be the exception. I was wrong.
So, I just want you all to rest assured and know that I will make it through this like I have made it through every other hardship in my life. I firmly believe that I will forget about the pain of this part of the process after it's all over. I am taking a lot of comfort in what other adoptive families have told me, that one day I will come back and read the last 10 or so posts on this blog and I will laugh at the fact that I actually had time to be this frustrated, not to mention write this much.
In some ways I think this is God's way of saying, "Not so fast Amy... we're going to make sure you can let go and let God."
So... at this point, that's what I'm trying to do.
~Me.
Which brings me to my next point. Despite statements like the one in the paragraph above, I am fine. I've gotten the impression lately that people think I'm really depressed or something because of this somewhat frustrating wait. This is my fault by making statements on this blog and on Facebook about my frustration. I'm not going to lie, it does suck, and I am a little bitter about the fact that we haven't moved a spot in well over 2 months, but I do know I will be fine in the end. Everyone in the adoption community warned me about this part of the process, so it is not a huge surprise to me to be feeling quite frustrated right now. Where I went wrong was that I, like so many other future adoptive mothers, just thought that for some reason we would be the exception from a long referral wait, and when we moved so quickly on the waiting list at first, I REALLY thought we would be the exception. I was wrong.
So, I just want you all to rest assured and know that I will make it through this like I have made it through every other hardship in my life. I firmly believe that I will forget about the pain of this part of the process after it's all over. I am taking a lot of comfort in what other adoptive families have told me, that one day I will come back and read the last 10 or so posts on this blog and I will laugh at the fact that I actually had time to be this frustrated, not to mention write this much.
In some ways I think this is God's way of saying, "Not so fast Amy... we're going to make sure you can let go and let God."
So... at this point, that's what I'm trying to do.
~Me.
