Today I went back and read this blog for the first time in a long, long time. I read posts from back in 2009 when our adoption process first started and I realized something: I really was an open book on this thing. I was completely willing to share my heart with the world about our adoption - good and bad. Looking back I see what a beautiful thing this blog was back then, it even played a large role in 2 different friends of mine signing on and also adopting from Ethiopia, and that is AMAZING. (Five million minus 2 more! Blessings to you both!!)
Over the last year and a half or so, you can plainly see that my blog has become mostly about Eli and our everyday life rather than adoption. Not that it's a bad thing, that's just where our life is right now, which is completely okay and fun to talk about. I will admit though, going through and reading old posts that had so much anticipation, and knowing what a blessing Eli is in our lives now, makes me miss adoption even more than I thought I did. (And I already miss it a lot to begin with!!) For comparison, I think I miss adoption lately much like a mother who is itching to get pregnant again. I am more eager than ever to sign on again and embark on the stressful/exhausting/overwhelming process that is adoption.
I say this stuff not to make any "announcements" or anything, because I don't thnk we are quite ready for that yet. (Remember that 2012 was supposed to be a year without any baby news!) I guess I just want to be totally honest on here as I always have and admit that I'm thinking and praying about it... a lot lately... and that very likely means we aren't done with adoption. I just can't get it out of my mind or my heart and that means something to me. I think both Mark and I have realized that our lives are just paving a different path than most, and we have been at peace with that for several years now, so why not continue?
To be continued...
I'm thinking... and that's dangerous!!
