However, I have to be honest, the past few days I have been filled with a very heavy heart. Mostly because I know what could be happening right now with our son. I've watched the videos, read the books, seen the images. I know the realities of the devastation that plagues the beautiful country of Ethiopia. It's what made me long for Ethiopian adoption in the first place. I say this because right now is very likely NOT a good time of life for our son. Although I am very hopeful he is safely tucked away in a crib in Ethiopia, there is a chance he is not, and that makes my heart literally hurt inside.
I think knowing we are so close to referral made me start thinking about him in a more real sense. He's out there... living... breathing and alone. Or, perhaps he is with someone else who cannot or won't be able to care for him much longer. Is he hurt? Crying? Hungry? The thoughts are intense, sad and heavy on my heart.
I'm taking comfort in something that our pastor said to us, "Remember that anxiety shows doubt in faith". So, because I do NOT want to doubt the power of my Lord, I am going to try my best to just be patient and wait for the photo of that little boy who I hope and pray is safely lying in an orphanage somewhere. I hope you will pray the same, for us. Thank you again for everyone's support, it means the world to us.
